It's been a good minute since I've posted, so lets fix that!

A lot has happened to me since I last posted, and I'm quite pleased with myself. I conquered my fear of reptiles- alright maybe not conquered hehe, but I can hold this little gecko we have and actually like her.. Need proof? I have attached photographic evidence... =) ============>

She is actually quite interesting, I was holding her the other day and Rob tilted his head to the side and said something to her and she copied him and tilted her head as well. I'm sure it doesn't mean the same thing as a Golden Retriever doing that, but she has a curiosity for folks just the same. She seems to like me best, (ironic huh?) I've tried to pass her to other people to hold and she backs up back into my hand and won't allow herself to be passed, so that's cute. Anyway moving right along..

I took and passed my GED test, I don't know what I was so worried about all this time, but it's done! I also went ahead and did the COMPASS test, while I scored great on the reading and writing, my math wasn't so hot. No biggie, I'll take the remedial course and keep on trucking! Oh so I guess I should add that I was accepted for fall semester at Georgia Gwinnett College! I was worried that I would have to do a 2 year first like Perimeter or something, but nope, I got my acceptance and I will be registering for classes Friday! 

I've decided I want to get my degree in Early Childhood Education. (Teaching elementary school, not day care) Let's face it, little kids is where all the fun is! I gave a brief thought to teaching secondary biology, since that was my favorite subject in school, but then I remembered two things, first, if it wasn't for Tom Nieset and his willingness to cut off frog legs I would have never made it through dissections- ick, while he enjoyed cutting open the little guy and checking out the inside, I stayed as far back from the desk as possible, laughing at his ridiculous antics of cutting up that poor amphibian, and doing all the writing...  and the second- middle school kids have attitudes. Bad ones... I think I will stick to the little ones that still want to learn! (And yes I'm aware that some middle school kids do want to learn, but I think the payout of watching a 7 year old's eyes light up when they understand something is going to be phenomenal!) I can see it now, the first day of school my speech will start with "Good morning boys and girls, my name is Mrs. Green- just like the color!" hehehehe 

I can't express how excited I am that my family is stepping up to help me achieve my dreams! Without my mother, my husband, and anyone else I can sucker into babysitting over the next couple of years, this wouldn't be possible. I'm ready! I have Pinterest boards already overflowing with bulletin board ideas, songs and tips and tricks for learning things- who doesn't remember "Never eat soggy worms/salty watermelon" or "Please Excuse My Dear Aunt Sally"?? Macaroni necklace anyone?

I'm also nervous about college, I guess that is normal. I know nothing about history, sure I know you go to school to LEARN these things, but I am wondering how many others around me will already know when I haven't the slightest clue? 

I will have to deal with my own homework as well as that of two kids, little league, a toddler, dinner, laundry.... It's going to be hard, but at the end of the day when I get to finally walk across the stage and get my diploma, it will all have been worth it. I will be able to say that I took my life that started out a little out of order and chaotic, and turned it around into something great! I will be able to show my children with confidence that if you put your mind to it you really can conquer anything that comes your way. I can show them first hand the adversities that you suffer when you make the wrong decision, but also the rewards when you decide to change your mind. Nothing is a good enough excuse to say "that's it, it can't be done, I'm giving up".

I started my life with the wrong person, in the wrong situation, I looked for someone else to provide love and happiness instead of realizing the only way to true self happiness is to make yourself happy. I married someone that didn't care for me, only his ability to control me, because I longed for acceptance and happiness. I had 2 children at a young age because I didn't see any other way to do Life. I didn't think it was as simple as a student aid form and a test. After those things happened I told myself that was it. I had messed up my life and there was no way to recover. I dropped out of high school 10 years ago and it has taken me til now, surrounding myself with the right people, accepting support from my loving husband, and my family to finally see that life isn't over.  A few poor choices don't have to ruin everything. You can always get up, dust off and say alright- now is the time. And that is precisely what I'm doing. It will be a hard journey, but what have I got to lose? Everyone has greatness inside of them, it just takes a spark to ignite the flame! Listen to Katy, she knows what she's talking about!