Here we are again! A couple of interesting things are going on with me, so lets talk about them!
First up, I'm becoming increasingly interested in these little crested geckos- which is bizarre to me given my lifelong fear of all things "critter". The more I check out little Izzy and hang out in the forums on Pangeareptile.com the more I want another little crestie baby! I need a bigger tank for Izzy first, but all in good time. They are really cute little guys and dolls! I'm thinking a dark based one similar to this guy pictured here <=== Look at their "eyelashes"! CUTE! So just thought I'd share that =).
Next up- weight loss challenge. I haven't had a soda in TWO days!! Um that's a long time for me just in case you don't think that's a big deal. ;) So far I'm using sweet tea to ease the caffeine withdrawal, but with the way I make my Southern sweet tea I'm going to have to limit it a pretty good bit. I've tried Splenda and diet sugars, and I can't get past the taste. So the plan is to wean off cokes with tea, then work on drinking less tea... I've tried quitting sodas "cold turkey" before, but the headaches and irritability that follow make me cave in within a day.
I'm adopting the attitude that small changes lead to greater victories! The less deprived you feel, the more you feel like you are going to succeed. Now of course that doesn't mean I can sit all day eating oreos.... but a small indulgence here and there will let me have things I want, but I usually try to talk myself out of them.
Next item up for review- T-Minus 26 days and counting until MY first day of college! I'm getting more at ease and more anxious all at the same time! I'm feeling more confident in myself and my ability to do well at my schoolwork. I think I'll pick up the Math rather fast once the "refreshing" starts, History is always memorizing facts, I'm not sure what to expect from Human Geography, but we shall see! Oh and hopefully there's no Shakespeare in English 1101- otherwise I'm screwed lol. I don't understand Shakespeare one bit! I think I'd do ok reading his work for the sake of reading it, but when it comes time to "interpret what you think he meant in line 101" I'm completely lost. See you are asked for your opinion, yet your answer can be wrong, which baffles me. I mean sure if he was talking about a sunset and I said "I think he likes blue dogs" I see that's wrong, but anyway hopefully I can just opt out of any of that hehe. (Sorry to those that love him, I'm sure you are cringing at the thought of someone "skipping" Shakespeare... hehe)
At the same time that I'm being calmed about the actual classes and work involved, I'm getting more anxious about attending college as a mom of 3 kids, babysitter to another... How do you balance my homework, their homework, bath time, dinner, studying, getting enough sleep, going to the gym, making sure everyone has clean socks?!?!
From an educational standpoint I think the timing is best for me now. I wouldn't have been worrying about how to really explain geometry to children when I was 19. I wouldn't have listened carefully to how to help a child that struggles with reading, or concerned myself with joining clubs at school. I would have been worried about silly things, boys, friends, and having fun. So I'm glad that I'm at the most receptive time in my life now. I think my willingness to learn and fully grasp everything told to me and actually soak up what the instructors are trying to tell me is at a peak right now. I actually understand what it means to be an adult, to keep a home for yourself, and I also understand the needs and differences in children. These things will help me.
From a stay at home mom perspective I worry about several things. I worry that the time I'm taking to do this is taking away from my family, even though I know it's better in the long run. The kids don't understand why they can't do sports this fall, but with Tuesday and Thursday evening classes I can't get them to practices this semester so they won't be able to do it. I'm disappointing them and making their lives better all at the same time. I know I'm making the right choice by far, but I guess I've never really honestly felt like I deserved things like this, so its easy to feel guilty for taking the time for me.
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